It is going to be a long term thing, dearest.. and all of what isn't clear yet.

I don;t rock *hug* or not there.. that bit was just to do something concrete immediately and personaly to feel better and be able to sleep. I am doing other things in other places.

I have said this to a few other people recently. But, what has helped me most personally, at the end of the day was posts like your next one, and when I come home at night I am first with the boy, and then the pack, and then, best, outside touching ground, and tending.